Is Ramadan for me??

ok, I feel so left out this Ramadan. I know how blessed this month is and a person can recieve so many blessings but I feel so left out. I am an insulin dependent diabetic, so fasting for me with out a little something to go along with the 4 or 5 shots I take a day is not happening. Believe me I have tried and gotten pretty sick. But my husband and our oldest son are fasting, Alhamdulilah. The sisters I work with are fasting. The sisters at the masjid are fasting. But me NOT FASTING! It is so frustrating to me. I feel seperated from my family and friends. I feel guilty during lunch at work as I take my shot and eat my lunch. I let my blood sugar level fall too low on the weekends when I'm home with my family cuz I hate to eat in front of them. I know, I know, I know Allah does not want me to get sick, He does not want me to fast if it's a hardship. My husband tells, my friends tell me. I know I can feed the poor or another fasting person instead. But it just doesn't seem the same. I love Allah so much and I want to show it during the month of Ramadan just like every other Muslim. I want to draw closer to Allah too. It makes my cry sometimes, that I can't show my love for Allah like everyone else. The other day at work, a sister asked me"how your fast? oh that's right your not fasting, well how's eating?" I know she was just joking but I still felt so bad, almost guilty.

But Alhumdulilah, I have made some other changes this Ramadan, and I pray that Allah is pleased with them. I have added Sunnah prayers to my life, I have started reading the Quran in the morning after Fajr, I am taking Quran classes with the kiddies during Sunday schoo at the Masjidl! ( I know, but I had to start some where;-) I am working with the sisters at the Masjid for the sake of Allah, more and more. I really do enjoy those things. I have learned this month that I can worship Allah in every thing I do, think and say and ENJOY IT! Wow, maybe I'm not so left out after All.