Sunday, November 25, 2007

The Messenger of Allah said (translated) "Islam came as something strange and Islam will again seem strange, Tuba (a tree in Paradise) for those who are strange." Sahih Muslim 1/146

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Aboo Moosa Al-Ash’aree said, “I asked the Messenger of Allah: Who is the best Muslim? The Messenger of Allah replied, “He is the one from whom Muslims are safe from the evil of his tongue and hands.” (Muslim)

Monday, November 05, 2007

As is shown by the hadeeth of at-Tirmidhee (no. 2641): 'Abdullaah ibn 'Amr said: The Messenger of Allaah said,"What happened to the Children of lsraa'eel will happen with my Ummah, just as one shoe resembles the other, to the point that if one of them had intercourse with his mother openly, there would be someone who did that in my Ummah. The Children of Israa'eel split into seventy two sects and my Ummah will split into seventy three sects, all of which are in the Fire except one sect." They asked, "Which is that one, 0 Messenger of Allaah?" He replied, "That which I and my Companions are upon." Declared hasan by Shaikh al-Albaanee.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

this hadith is really very beneficial.. mash-Allah.

The Hadeeth of the Eleven Women Source: Saheeh Muslim Article ID : MRG030001 [10213]
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Muslim narrated the following hadith:
Isnad: Suleiman bin 'abd alRahman and 'Ali bin Hujr » 'Ibsai bin Bunus » Hisham bin 'Urwa » 'Abd Allah bin 'Urwah » 'Urwah
Narrated 'Aisha:
Eleven women sat (at a place) and promised and contracted that they would not conceal anything of the news of their husbands.
The first one said, "My husband is like the meat of a lean weak camel which is kept on the top of a mountain which is neither easy to climb, nor is the meat fat, so that one might put up with the trouble of fetching it."

The second one said, "I shall not relate my husband's news, for I fear that I may not be able to finish his story, for if I describe him, I will mention all his defects and bad traits."

The third one said, "My husband is a tall man; if I describe him (and he hears of that) he will divorce me, and if I keep quiet, he will neither divorce me nor treat me as a wife."

The fourth one said, "My husband is a moderate person like the night of Tihama which is neither hot nor cold. I am neither afraid of him, nor am I discontented with him."

The fifth one said, "My husband, when entering (the house) is a leopard, and when going out, is a lion. He does not ask about whatever is in the house."

The sixth one said, "If my husband eats. he eats too much (leaving the dishes empty), and if he drinks he leaves nothing, and if he sleeps he sleeps alone (away from me) covered in garments and does not stretch his hands here and there so as to know how I fare (get along)."

The seventh one said, "My husband is a wrong-doer or weak and foolish. All the defects are present in him. He may injure your head or your body or may do both."

The eighth one said, "My husband is soft to touch like a rabbit and smells like a Zarnab (a kind of good smelling grass)."

The ninth one said, "My husband is a tall generous man wearing a long strap for carrying his sword. His ashes are abundant and his house is near to the people who would easily consult him."

The tenth one said, "My husband is Malik, and what is Malik? Malik is greater than whatever I say about him. (He is beyond and above all praises which can come to my mind). Most of his camels are kept at home (ready to be slaughtered for the guests) and only a few are taken to the pastures. When the camels hear the sound of the lute (or the tambourine) they realize that they are going to be slaughtered for the guests."

The eleventh one said, "My husband is Abu Zar and what is Abu Zar (i.e., what should I say about him)? He has given me many ornaments and my ears are heavily loaded with them and my arms have become fat ( i.e., I have become fat). And he has pleased me, and I have become so happy that I feel proud of myself. He found me with my family who were mere owners of sheep and living in poverty, and brought me to a respected family having horses and camels and threshing and purifying grain . Whatever I say, he does not rebuke or insult me. When I sleep, I sleep till late in the morning, and when I drink water (or milk), I drink my fill. The mother of Abu Zar and what may one say in praise of the mother of Abu Zar? Her saddle bags were always full of provision and her house was spacious. As for the son of Abu Zar, what may one say of the son of Abu Zar? His bed is as narrow as an unsheathed sword and an arm of a kid (of four months) satisfies his hunger. As for the daughter of Abu Zar, she is obedient to her father and to her mother. She has a fat well-built body and that arouses the jealousy of her husband's other wife. As for the (maid) slave girl of Abu Zar, what may one say of the (maid) slavegirl of Abu Zar? She does not uncover our secrets but keeps them, and does not waste our provisions and does not leave the rubbish scattered everywhere in our house." The eleventh lady added, "One day it so happened that Abu Zar went out at the time when the milk was being milked from the animals, and he saw a woman who had two sons like two leopards playing with her two breasts. (On seeing her) he divorced me and married her. Thereafter I married a noble man who used to ride a fast tireless horse and keep a spear in his hand. He gave me many things, and also a pair of every kind of livestock and said, 'Eat (of this), O Um Zar, and give provision to your relatives." She added, "Yet, all those things which my second husband gave me could not fill the smallest utensil of Abu Zar's." 'Aisha then said: Allah's Apostle said to me, "I am to you as Abu Zar was to his wife Um Zar."
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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

As Salaamu Alaikum

Please check out Organic Muslimah's Blog http://organicmuslimah.blogspot.com/2007/10/day-17-support-muslimah-owned-business.html
She purchased some hijab pins from me and took professional photo of them. Masha'Allah she is a excellent photographer. Her pictures, make the ones I posted look so sad!!

And please email me at fullycoveredevents@gmail.com insha'Allah if you would like to order a hijab pin or two. Eid is swiftly approaching :-)

Friday, September 21, 2007

Ya Allah, Ya Allah Ya Allah!!

Ya Allah, I am Your slave and the son of Your male slave and the son of your female slave. My forehead is in Your Hand (i.e. you have control over me) Your Judgment upon me is assured and Your Decree concerning me is just. I ask You by every Name that You have named Yourself with, revealed in Your Book, taught any one of your creation or kept unto Yourself in the knowledge of the unseen that is with You, to make the Quran the spring of my heart and the light of my chest, the banisher of my sadness and the reliever of my distress.

Ameen

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Ramadan Mubarak!!!!

Thursday, September 06, 2007







Update.....

As Salamu Alaikum,
JOB: So I just want to give you an update on my situation. I am still unemployed sorta. Insha'Allah I will start a part time work from home position on Friday. So I don't know what happens after training, but I know i'm scheduled to train and that should pay a little something, insha'Allah.

Money: SubhanAllah I have none. my rent is late and I have had to make payment arrangements on everything. Insha'Allah I can get some sadiqah from the Masjid. You wanna hear something that's crazy? I have such a hard time asking for things. So I wrote a note to give to the Imam asking for sadiqah and just chickened out. I mean I was going to hand it to him on tuesday when I handed him my lesson for my arabic lesson, nope, not me, I chickened out and stuffed the note in my bra no doubt. May Allah grant me some courage, ameen. But I am selling Hijab pins (see above) now, let me know if your interested, I do have pay pal (fullycoveredevents@gmail.com) and I can ship some out to you. I also put a post on my cafe mom page about selling the pins and a sister sent me $25 for the sake of Allah. I was so choked up I didn't know what to say or do, Alhamdulillah for good muslims right?

Family: My oldest boy has started the K12 program, that allow you to attend public school from your home. Masha'Allh he really seem to like it and is doing well. Also, my oldest boy has decided to "look" like a muslim with the thob and kufi, I couldn't pay him to wear that before. Also he announced to me on Sunday that his islamic name is Yusef, and he has already directed his friends at the Masjid to call him that, Masha'Allah. And this young man has also given me the name of Fatimah! Masha'Allah he is really growing up man!

I have had time to do all those things that I felt like I couldn't do when I was working. So I have been practing putting crownrows in my daugthers hair, I have also been attend Quran classes and trying to learn a few more short surahs. I have also been teaching my younger two children to recgonize the alphabet. So I do manage to keep busy, I just wish I was making money at the same time.

But Alhamdulillah, what can I say I am still able to make salat and that is great!


Above you will see a few pics of the hijab pins for sale, insha'Allah, they range from $4 to $7 dollars. Let me know what you think....










Friday, August 31, 2007

Something to tickle your funny bone!


Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Three Tough Questions


There was a young man who went overseas to study for quite a long time. When he returned, he asked his parents to find him a religious scholar or any expert who could answer his 3 Questions. Finally, his parents were able to find a Muslim scholar.

Young man: Who are you? Can you answer my questions?

Scholar: I am one of Allah (SubHana Wa Ta`ala )'s slaves and Insha-Allah (God willing), I will be able to answer your questions.

Young man: Are you sure? A lot of Professors and experts were not able to answer my questions.

Scholar: I will try my best, with the help of Allah(SubHana Wa Ta`ala).

Young Man: I have 3 questions:



1. Does God exist? If so, show me His shape.


2. What is thaqdir (fate)?


3. If shaitan (Devil) was created from the fire, why at the end he will be thrown to hell that is also created from fire. It certainly will not hurt him at all, since Shaitan (Devil) and the hell were created from fire. Did God not think of it this far?



Suddenly, the Scholar slapped the young man's face very hard.

Young Man (feeling pain): Why do you get angry at me?

Scholar: I am not angry. The slap is my answer to your three questions.

Young Man: I really don't understand.

Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?

Young Man: Of course, I felt the pain.

Scholar: So do you believe that pain exists?

Young Man: Yes.

Scholar: Show me the shape of the pain!

Young Man: I cannot.

Scholar: That is my first answer. All of us feel God's existence without being able to see His shape... Last night, did you dream that you will be slapped by me?

Young Man: No.

Scholar: Did you ever think that you will get a slap from me, today?

Young Man: No.

Scholar: That is takdir (fate) my second answer........ My hand that I used to slap you, what is it created from?

Young Man: It is created from flesh.

Scholar: How about your face, what is it created from?

Young Man: Flesh.

Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?

Young Man: In pain.

Scholar: Thats it. this is my third answer, Even though Shaitan (Devil) and also the hell were created from the fire, if Allah wants, insha-Allah (God willing), the hell will become a very painful place for Shaitan

Allah (swt) said:
"If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you." If you are not ashamed, pass this message on...only if you believe.

"Yes, I love Allah. Allah is my fountain of Life and My Savior. Allah keeps me going day & night. Without Allah, I am no one. But with Allah, I can do everything. Allah is my strength."

May Allah help us all to succeed... Ameen

Thursday, August 16, 2007

I lost my job today!

I really can't believe it. I have been having the hardest time getting on my feet since my divorce. I moved here to GA and it's been just one struggle after another! The funny thing is, I have been praying that Allah would let me work from home So I would not have to pay daycare and could have time for with my children. Well I guess I got part of my wish! I don't have to WORK and or pay day care, but now I can't pay rent. Hmmmmm! What's a girl to do?

Pleas keep me in you dua'a!

Monday, July 30, 2007

This Brother is so funny to me!


Friday, July 20, 2007

Zakaatul-Fitr
Q.1 Is it permissible to discharge the obligation of Zakaatul-Fitr on the first day of Ramadhaan? And is it permissible to distribute it in money?

Answer
As for the discharging of it on the first day of Ramadhaan - there is Ikhtilaaf (difference of opinion among the scholars) about it. The most correct opinion is that it's not permissible, because it is called Zakaatul-Fitr, and Al-Fitr (ending of the fast) does not occur except at the end of the month. Also, the Messenger of Allaah ordered that it be discharged before the people go out to the Prayer (Salaatul-'Eed). Along with that, the companions (Sahabah) used to give out the Zakaatul-Fitr one or two days before the 'Eed. As for discharging the Zakaatul-Fitr in MONEY, this is a point of Ikhtilaf (difference among the scholars). And the correct opinion - as I see it - is that it is not discharged except by (distribution of) FOOD.
This is because Ibn Umar said: "The Messenger of Allaah made obligatory (the payment of) Zakaatul-Fitr from a Saa' of dates or a Saa' of barley..."1
Abu Sa'eed Al-Khudree said: "We used to distribute it (Zakaatul-Fitr) in the time of the Messenger of Allaah as one saa' of food, and our food was dates and barley and raisins and cottage cheese..."2 So, it becomes clear from these two hadeeth that it (Zakaatul-Fitr) is not discharged except from FOOD. And the distribution of it in food displays it openly and shows it, and all of the members of the family know about it. In this way, there is an exhibition or manifestation of this aspect of the religion.
As for discharging it in money, this causes it to be concealed (unseen), and perhaps the person may favour himself, by discharging it in money, and thus reduce its amount.3 Therefore, strictly following the Law (al-Qur'aan and Sunnah) is best and it is blessed. Someone might argue that the distribution of food doesn't benefit the poor. (But, we say) the poor person - if truly poor - must definitely benefit from the food.

Q.2 Is it permissible to discharge Zakaatul-Fitr in money? - with mention of the evidences.

Answer
Zakaatul-Fitr is not permissible except (to be paid) from FOOD. And it is not allowed to discharge its value in money. This is because the Prophet made it obligatory (to be discharged) from a saa' of dates or a saa' of barley.
Abu Sa'eed Al-Khudree said: "We used to discharge it (Zakaatul-Fitr) in the time of the Prophet as a saa' of FOOD...)".4
Therefore, it is not lawful for anyone to discharge Zakaatul-Fitr from money (dirhams) or clothing or household furnishings. Instead, that which is obligatory is to discharge it in what Allaah has made obligatory on the tongue of the Prophet . There is no consideration (weight) for the Istihsaan [viewing of something to be good, without basis from the legal sources of Qur'aan and Sunnah] of those of the people who viewed the giving of money as a good thing. The Law (Sharee'ah) does not follow (i.e. it is not secondary to) the opinions of people.
No, it (the Law) is from the One Who is Wise, Knowing -Allaah - The Mighty, The Glorious, The Most Knowing, The Most Wise. So, if that which has been made obligatory by the tongue of Muhammad is a saa' of food, then it is not permissible to bypass (skip over) that, no matter what our intellects make us to view as being good. Instead, it is a must that the human being question and suspect his intellect and views if it conflicts with, or contradicts, the law of Allaah.

Q.3 What is the ruling in the case of someone compelled to discharge Zakaatul-Fitr by money? And does it fulfill for him his obligation?

Answer
It appears to me that if someone is compelled to discharge the Zakaatul-Fitr by money, then he should give them the money, and not openly disobey those in authority. But, as far as that which is between him and Allaah, he should discharge what he has been commanded by the Prophet to discharge. So, he should discharge a saa' of food as the Prophet commanded. Their compelling you to discharge it from money is compulsion to do something which Allaah has not legislated. In that case, you must fulfill what you believe to be obligatory.

Q.4 Is it permissible to discharge Zakaatul-Fitr from meat? Some of the desert dwellers don't have food to distribute for Zakaatul-Fitr, so is it permissible for them to slaughter some of their animals and distribute it to the poor?
Answer
This is not correct, because the Prophet made it obligatory to give one saa' of food, while meat is measured by weight (not by volume).
Ibn Umar t said: "The Messenger of Allaah made obligatory the Zakaatul-Fitr as a saa' of dates or a saa' of barley..."5
And Abu Sa'eed al-Khudree t said: "We used to discharge it (Zakaatul-Fitr) in the lifetime of the Prophet as a saa' of food, and our food was dates, and barley, and raisins and cottage cheese "6
For this reason, the strongest opinion of the sayings of the scholars is that Zakaatul-Fitr is not fulfilled by paying (distributing of) money, nor clothing, nor furnishings (furniture). There is no weight to the sayings of those who say that Zakaatul-Fitr is fulfilled by payment of money; this being so because as long as we have in front of us a text of the Prophet ( then there is no opinion (in the matter) after his, nor accepting as good what the intellect considers good while negating the Law (the Qur'aan and Sunnah). Allaah U will not ask us about the opinion of so and so on the day of Resurrection. He will only question us about the saying of the Messenger ( as in His (Allaah's U) saying :
And ( remember) the Day (Allaah) will call to them and say: what answer gave you to the Messengers?7
Just imagine yourself standing before Allaah on the day of Resurrection while it had been made obligatory on you to fulfill the payment of Zakaatul-Fitr from Food. Will it be possible, if you are asked on the day of Resurrection: How did you answer the Messenger of Allaah in reference to the obligation of this charity? Will it be possible for you to defend yourself and say: By Allaah! this is the opinion of so and so, and this is the opinion of such and such? The answer: No! and even if you said that, it would not benefit you (at all). The truth, without doubt, is that Zakaatul-Fitr is not accepted except from FOOD; and any food which is the staple food of the country fulfils this obligation.
If you see the opinions of the scholars in this issue, you will see that they are on two extremes and one in the middle. One (extreme) side says: Pay it (Zakaatul-Fitr) from food or pay it from cash (money). The other (extreme) side says: Don't pay it from money, and don't pay it from food except five types only, that is : wheat, dates, barley, raisins, cottage cheese. These two opinions are the extreme opposite of each other.
As for the middle opinion, it says : Pay it (Zakaatul-Fitr) from every food which the people are fed from, and not from that which the people are not fed from. So, pay it from wheat, dates, rice, pearl millets (dukhn), corn - and whatever is similar to that, - even to the extent if we accepted the idea that there is a place where the staple food of the people is meat, then we would pay it from meat. Based on this, it becomes clear that what the questioner mentioned about the people of the desert giving meat in place of (a saa' of those staple items which are normally given as) Zakaatul-Fitr, does not fulfill the obligation of Zakaatul-Fitr.
The preceding Fataawaa (Legal Decisions) were taken from the book entitled "Fataawaa Ash-Shaykh Muhammad Ibn Saaleh al-Uthaymeen (Hafizahu'llah -May Allaah Protect and Preserve him).
Footnotes
1 Bukhaaree 2:579 One Saa' is equal to four (4) Mudd, and one (1) Mudd is equal to the amount held by cupping the two hands together. It is a measure by volume not by weight 2 Bukhaaree 2:582 3 As the amount would differ if we compare the value of one saa' of dates to one saa' of barley for example. Since a saa' of barley is about 7 riyals ($2.00), while a saa' of dates ranges -according to quality - from 25 riyals ($7.00) for a lesser quality to 42 riyals ($12.00) for a medium quality, to 175 riyals ($49.00) for the best quality per saa'. 4 Bukhaaree 2:582 5 Bukhaaree 2:579 6 Bukhaaree 2:582 7 Al-Qasaas : 65
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Thursday, July 19, 2007

We are made to persist. That's how we find out who we are. ~ Tobias Wolff

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

If I should Speak
As Salaamu Alaikum! I just finished reading "If I Should Speak" written by Umm Zakiyah.....Masha'Allah this was a really good book! If you like fiction you will love this book. I mean it actually made me cry. It is so moving, this sister is a excellent writer and the characters in the book are so realistic. You have either been one of the characters or know someone like one of the characters. So if your looking for a good read, I would pick this one up!!

Friday, July 06, 2007

Try not to become a man of success, but rather a man of value. ~ Albert Einstein

Monday, June 25, 2007

Have you ever felt this way?



I have been experiencing some Iman growth lately ( Alhamdulilah) I don't know if you have read some of my previous post and the Iman was not so high. But I have had some pretty major changes occur in my life in the last 3 months that have resulted in me being in a completely different environment. In this new environment I have really been able to learn about this religion and following the sunnah of our Prophet (sallalahu alayhi wa sallam) and I have really been learning a lot about Tawheed. But I feel like the more, I learn and the more my Iman grows, the more I feel distance from my non Muslim family and friends. I talked to a really close friend about these feeling a few weeks ago and she says she feels the same way.



So a childhood friend of mine has invited me to her babies baptism, I really don't want to go. I don't want to stand there IN A CHURCH no doubt and watch her baby be baptised. Not that I don't think she should have it done, If that is her believe than fine. But it is not mine. I don't want to hurt her feelings but I want to be true to my own feeling and beliefs. More and more I am feeling that it is more important to please Allah, than my friends. So what happens now?

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Today I seen a blog that said "Allah remembers us even when we don't remember him". That's deep huh?
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Ok So I talked to Hijabi about this yesterday and I want to formulate a email or flyer that is titled "Some things you should know when you work with a Muslim"! ok, so here's what I would put on that list:

1) Muslim's do not eat pork, so please don't offer me a hot dog at the company cook out
2) If I am a Muslim women and you are a man, please don't shake my hand and don't be offended when I won't shake yours
3) Muslims don't drink Alcohol or condone it, so I don't want to sit at LUNCH with you, while I am wearing hijab and your having a Martini, nor do I want to come to the bar with you after work
4) Yes I really do pray 5 times a day and sometimes I pray here, so please don't be alarmed by this.
5) Please don't tell me I look like a nun or refer to my scarf as "head gear"

Did I miss anything? what would you add?

ok, I just started a new job and these people don't know A THING ABOUT MUSLIMS and sometimes it annoys me :-)

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Don't lose ...

Allaah's Messenger (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) has said: "There are two blessings that many people lose, health and free time." [Saheeh al-Bukharee]
Allaah's Messenger (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) said: "…If you do not have Haya, then do whatever you want." [Saheeh al-Bukharee]

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

OK DON'T LAUGH AT ME...........

But I just learned how to make Thikr on my hand on Saturday. I am so excited!! LMHO!! I never could figure out what every one was doing with there finger and I didn't want to seem stupid so I wouldn't ask. If you could have seen the way I made thikr with my hands, using both hands no doubt, I looked like a first grader learning math!! LMHO! But now I know and I feel cool. I when my oldest son came home I couldn't wait to show him what I learned. I was like look was your auntie talk me today!! Alhamdulilah, I am learning so much in my new city. I am grateful to be here.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

As a reminder, the importance of TAWHEED
Shaykh Saaleh ahl-Shaykh mentions in his explanation of kashf ash-Shubuhaat, the following story:Shaykh-ul-Islam Muhammad ibn Abdul-Wahhaab was with his students and after having completed the study of his book 'Kitab at-Tawheed', he wished to start again the study of this book for the 3rd or 4th time.His students said to him : "O Shaykh, we wish to study another book, a book of fiqh or hadith".The Shaykh replied: "Why (do you wish to study another book)?".His students: "We have in fact understood Tawheed, we want to study another science".The Shaykh: "Wait, I shall give some thought to this".A few days later, the shaykh came to the lesson with a troubled face. His students asked him the reason for it.The shaykh explained that he'd come across something which angered him. His students asked what it was. The Shaykh: "It has been related to me that the inhabitants of a house have sacrificed a rooster (for a Jinn) in front of their door. I have sent someone to confirm this affair".Some time later, his students asked him about the affair that he had mentioned.The Shaykh replied: "In fact, the inhabitants of this house did not sacrifice for other than Allaah, but it was someone who fornicated with his mother".Shocked, his students exclaimed:"We seek refuge with Allaah! He fornicated with his mother? We seek refuge with Allaah! He fornicated with his mother...".After mentioning this story, Shaykh Saleeh explained that Shaykh-ul-Islam told this story to show them that the statement "We understand Tawheed" is ignorance and is one of the greatest tricks of the Shaytaan.In fact, they have made greater a great sin [fornicating with one's mother] than shirk which exits from Islam.Indeed, their hearts were not angered when the shirk that exits from Islam was mentioned.And this also happens today, when some ignorant people see great sins and are angered by them, but when they hear about Shirk al-Akbar, or see people commiting shirk like sacrificing for other than Allaah, etc. this does not move their hearts.This proves their ignorance. It proves that they have not understood Tawheed.

Saturday, June 02, 2007

UPDATE!!!

Alhadmulilah Rabil Alamin!! I am so grateful to Allah that I cannot put it into words! Things are slowly but surely starting to change for me and my children. Allah has blessed us tremendously, I am working now!!! I actually have a job and I paid my May rent and I will be able to pay June! All of the things that I could not do in the previous post Allah has changed, I can feed my children, I can afford gas, I can take my children to the park. Alhamdulilah, Allah has placed sisters in my life that have really help keep my iman up during that rocky time. I am thankful for that. All the sisters who left me words of encouragement, Jazak Allah Khairn! I didn't post them cuz some of them were personal to me. But I needed those words of encouragement.

I think the biggest news that I have to report, is that I have learned that EVERYTHING COMES FROM ALLAH!! And I cannot do anything, no matter how big or how small with out Allah! I am so grateful.

Insha'Allah I will be able to keep in touch more now!

Saturday, April 28, 2007

So I have decided to blog about my current situation, in hopes that one day I will look back and laugh about this time.

My relocation to Georgia has not be pretty. I have been here 3 weeks now and I cannot find a job, I have had to apply for welfare and am still waiting to recieve food stamps to feed my 3 children, I have had to go to food banks, I moved into an apartment with "bugs"! I have no idea where my next dollar is coming from or what my children will even eat for dinner tonight. My rent is due next week $670, now where do I get that from? Groceries, we need them and don't have any money to get them. My children need clotes because GA is HOT. I can say I have never felt so helpless in my life!

So I come to the library everday to apply for jobs, but no one calls, well Bank of America called Alhamdulilah! I just pray that I have money for gas to get to the interview. I have had a job for the last 20 years of my life!!! 20 years!!! I have worked non stop since I was 14! Now I can't find anything. What is really going on?

A sister sent this to me today " "If you relied on Allah with a true reliance, He would provide for you the same as He provides birds: they set off in the early morning with empty stomachs and return back at the end of the day with full stomachs." [At-Tirmidhi, Ahmad] " I try to remember this everyday. This is the first time in my life that I have said and truly meant these words " Allah is all we have!!!"

I am trying so hard not to fall into a depressive state, all I can do at this moment is trust in Allah! I am trying so had not to listen to the whispers of shaytan to pay my rent. I don't really know where to turn, I am to embarrassed to tell my family about my situation because I don't want them to worry. The friends I have here are not being as supportive as they had promised before I moved here. I have considered going back to my husband, but that is not a good idea, because he could care less about what is happening to us. I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyday I ask Allah to show me what he wants me to do, I thank him for letting me be able to put one more dinner on the table again.

I tell you I will never take for granted again, a job, money for groceries, GAS MONEY, those are things that in the past I just expected to have, it was never a problem for me. I have taken care of my children by myself, financially (yes even when I was married) since they have come into this world, Alhamdulilah! But now I watch them cry in the grocery store because they are so hungry and thirsty. I have to tell my 3 year old that she can't get cereal this time! I am the mom that runs to the store and always bring my babies "something special" and now I just watch them cry and try not to cry too or at least not in front of them. The feeling of not be able to give your children food is the most horrible feeling ever, its suffocating. I swear I can't breath sometimes.

Insha'Allah I am going to look back at this post and laugh, I will be working and paying my rent and have food in the cabinets! Insha'Allah this is a test from Allah that I will pass! I know one thing Allah is real and I am truely nothing in comparison to him and I am powerless, and I don't do anything with out his permission and mercy. It is because of Allah's mercy that I had that job and I could feed my children, and now I just ask for more so I can continue to do what he had blessed me to do before.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

UPDATE TIME!!

So right now I am at my friends house, typing this eating cheetos ( sorry hijabi, not the light skinned one ;-) Alhamdulilah it's a beautiful day, my oldest child and my middle child are out doors playing an my youngest is nappy! I have lunch with my sister, so far it's been a great day. Alhamdulilah!! I am so grateful for this!

so I know it's been a while since we have talked, so here's an update. I did find place in Atlanta! I love it there, there are a ton of Muslims there, as hijabi would say it feels like hajj!!! So Insha'Allah my children and I will be heading there early this week. Make dua for us, I am driving from Michigan to Georgia by myself with 3 children!!

Right now I am in Michigan and it so nice to be amongst family and friends and to feel loved and welcomed. That's how it feel in Georgia for me too. I never felt that way in Seattle. So am so happy to be here and I am very thankful to Allah for allowing me to make there drastic changes in my life. I also pray that he makes this transition easy for my children in I.

So once I'm in Atlanta and get settle I will blog again!

Monday, February 26, 2007

AFRAID!

So I am preparing for this big move. I have no place to live yet and I have no job and I am terrified!!!! I keep second guessing myself, but I really know I am doing what's right. Last night I couldn't sleep, because my nerves are so bad! Between the stress of leaving the state, and the numerous ER trips with my children, I am feeling overwhelmed. So do any of you know any dua's for when you are feeling a little afraid about a life change?

Friday, February 16, 2007

A Good Day!

As-Salamu Alaikum!

Today turned out to be a good day, well at least so far. Today was payday! And I got more tickets to visit Atlanta, GA today. Insha'Allah that is where I am relocating to next month.

Also today, a lady at work, that I have seen around but never spoke to asked me where can she take her Shahadah! That blew me away. Especially since I just emailed Hijabi and told her I was tired and I didn't want to go to the halaqa at the near by masjid tonight! So I invited her to the Masjid and she doesn't live to far away. So insha'Allah we will see her there tonight and maybe Allah has sent us a new sister!! Allahu Akbar!!

Also while praying Dhuhr today, I just was really grateful that I even get to pray at all. Alahamdulilah! praying Dhuhr really made my day, cuz I was kinda grumpy.

Thank you Hijabi for the nudge to update my blog :-)

Friday, February 02, 2007

I HAVE THE GOLDEN TICKETS!!

As-Salamu Alaikum!
Wow, I think I have updated my blog like 2 or 3 times this week, that is HUGE for me! So As some of you know I have been kinda down about my current marriage and my iman has been way, way, way, scary low!!! But Alhamdulilah I am going to break out of this, Insha'Allah! Today, I bought my airline tickets out of here. Insha'Allah I will be moving to a place where I can build my Iman and feel free again! Please keep me in your dua'a!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

What's your Opinion!

I have been wondering lately.......Is the "traditional" way of wearing hijab, you know abayas, jilbabs, long scarves is this way of dressing ordered to women by Allah or preferred by Muslim men? Or did Allah just want us to be modest in our dress. What do you think?

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

ON A LIGHTER NOTE!

My daughter is being potty trained and gets to wear cute girlie panties! So one Sunday morning she actually comes into the living room and faced her backside towards me, pulled her cute girlie panties down and said "TAA DAA!"

What am I going to do with her??? :-)

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Assalamu Alaikum,

So hijabi keeps telling me that I need to update my blog, but I don't know what to say. I have been really blue lately. I am working on making some changes in my life to bring joy and Insha'Allah this will happen for me. I ask for you dua'a.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Assalamu Alaikum!

So I am back from my trip to Michigan and I had a really great time Alhamdulillah!! It was so good to see my family and friend, I swear it was therapeutic!

So let me ask you a question and please answer as honestly as you can. What is the benefit of being a Muslimah?

This question has been weighing heavily on my mind for the past couple of days! I mean before I got married and moved to the pacific northwest, I could answer that question. Now, I question it. I mean this religion just seem so chauvanistic to me as of late. I mean why can a man beat his wife lightly? Why if anyone was to prostrate to something other than Allah would it be a wife prostrating to her husband? I mean, I work just as many hours if not more than my husband, take care of the child, pay ALL of my own bills and am expected to still pay some of his too. why wouldn't he prostrate to me. I am so frustrated right now, I really need some help spiritually. Can anyone help me? :-(